How do you know?

If you could meet anyone, dead or alive, who would it be? Where would you meet and what would you talk about?

There are so many influential people I would love to sit down with. They range from political figures like Bernie Sanders (no surprise there) and Abraham Lincoln, to YouTube sensations to my personal heroes/spirit animals. In order, these are:

1. Mindy Kaling
2. Lauren Conrad
3. Nicki Minaj
4. Taylor Swift
5. Selena Gomez


But at this point in my life I have really started to re-explore and reevaluate my faith and my relationship with God.

The location doesn't matter (though I would love to see the world through his eyes).

And I just have one pressing question for him:

How do I know I'm going to be okay?

I know He knows, but how am I supposed to realize when I feel like everything is crashing down around me that, "everything happens for a reason and this is my path"?

Not that my life is some gigantic mess but...
I have a hard time following through (especially when it comes to promises I make myself).

Because every day I feel like a different person.

Some days I wake up and think about how much I hate my job and my school and the place I live and I start thinking about the future and how great it will be when I'm making six figures and living in a big house with a pool and like 82 dogs and my kids will excel at everything (obviously, because they're my kids).

But then I think about where I am now. Sitting here, in my own apartment, writing this because I don't have anything more pressing to be doing. And I bought a necklace today that I know the girls at work will flip out over when I wear it this weekend.
Speaking of the girls at work, I get to wake up every day and 1) be around clothes, 2) help people look their best, and 3) hang out with my best friends all day.


So how am I supposed to know if I'm doing everything right in life?
How are any of us supposed to know if this one decision we make or this one chance we take or this one person we meet will change our lives for better or for worse?

What is my path?
What even is a path?
Is it one end destination that every event leads up to?
Or do all of the events wind up being the path all along?

How do I know that I'll be with kids who excel at everything and a six-figure income? Is that something I made up to make myself feel better, or are you telling me that, God?

How do I know I'll be okay?
How do we know we'll be okay?


How do you know?